I’VE BEEN FEELING OVERWHELMED.
I mean, who isn’t?
2 years living and experiencing a pandemic.
2 years in and out of lockdowns, mostly lockdowns.
2 years not being able to facilitate in person workshops – my main revenue earner.
2 years with my nervous system being on high alert, doing what it does best, which is to protect me, but it doesn’t always know when I don’t need the alarm bells ringing.
2 years watching people rip each other apart online with hate and vile rage because they don’t agree with each other. My heart aching with each post I read. Knowing I should stop reading it, but it’s like driving by a car crash where you just can’t look away!
All of that and LIFE and all that comes with it still has to go on.
Work still needs to get done.
Bills still need to be paid.
Dinner still needs to be cooked.
The house (and those in it) still need to be cared for.
And of course ALL THE FEELS from what is happening around the world.
I love my feelings, especially my empathy, which I never want to lose, but sometimes it can feel overwhelming.
So yeah, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed.
If you are still reading this, you are probably nodding your head, in your head or out loud saying, “ME TOO!”
You are not alone.
I keep thinking, “But you have so much to be grateful for, just suck it up and go about your day.”
That is true. I have lots to be grateful for. I said to my husband a few weeks ago, “I love my life, but lately I am feeling everything so deeply.”
I am grateful for all that I have in my life, AND…I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by so much.
This is the problem I see so often and why our feelings compound and take us down. We think we don’t deserve to feel our feelings because we have so much to be grateful for, or we tell ourselves that it could always be worse. Or, we are afraid to feel them because they cause so much discomfort. So we stuff it down and don’t allow ourselves to even admit how we are feeling.
Yes, maybe it could be worse.
You are allowed to feel your feelings. They are valid. They are yours. They are a normal part of being human.
I know how to navigate my way through these feelings, so that gives me peace, but I still feel them. They still feel heavy and difficult to navigate at times.
WHAT I’VE BEEN DOING TO SUPPORT MYSELF
So I have been doing what I know works, for me, to guide me while I allow these feelings to flow through me. As I write this, I am finally on the other side of it, feeling really good. So I hope this will give you hope.
First, I decided to take time away from creating any new content. I haven’t shared a new podcast, blog, coaching email, or social media content since February 16th.
I love creating content and it brings me so much joy to be able to provide support to those who need it, but sometimes it is good to take a breather. It makes you realize that quality content is more important than quantity. I know the algorithms don’t support that, but I’m not a content creating machine. I want what I share to always come from my heart.
I have been writing in my journal, filter free. The kind of honest journal writing where you hope no one ever reads it. I actually said to my husband, “you would never ready my journal, right? And if I die, please burn it.” The journal is such a safe space to put all those feelings and thoughts – especially the ones you may never say out loud, because you know you don’t really mean it, you just need to vent it.
I’ve been cooking meals that I know I will enjoy, even if they don’t fall under the approved list of watching-my-waste-size. I think stretchy yoga pants were made for times likes these. My husband and I have been in the process of moving into a new home, and I’m still trying to make this a priority because it makes me feels so good.
I’ve been monitoring how much news I take in. There is a balance between staying informed and going so deep down the rabbit hole that your nervous system is on constant high alert. A part of that is also taking a break from scrolling on social media.
I have been sharing my experiences and feelings with the people in my life. There is something about sharing your feelings with people you trust. Especially when you hear, “me too.”
I’m trying to have more fun. Even if it is just rolling on the floor with my dog (who is always up for fun), or listening to my favourite feel good music.
For this past few weeks, I’ve even been listening to my own digital workshops. It has been a nice thing to do do while I unpack and get settled into my new home. It is definitely weird to listen to my own voice, but it reminds me that I can and will get through this and my feelings are normal.
Listening to myself talk about my past experiences and all I have gotten through is such a great reminder that this will pass. The past 2 years have been hard on all of us, but we will get through it. I trust that.
I tend to want to isolate during times like these, so I’m making sure I stay connected. I’ve been having lots of chats with a couple of my girlfriends who are feeling the same. We have been asking each other BIG questions and going deep into our conversations about the changes we want to see in the world. We have no solutions to some of these bigger world problems, yet, but it helps to talk about it.
Basically I’m doing just about anything that makes me feel calm so I don’t take up permanent residence in the overwhelm. I am being very kind to myself during this time. Not judging myself for feeling this way. It will take as long as it needs to take.
If you have been feeling overwhelmed, trust what works for you. You know best, even when you don’t feel like you do. If you don’t feel like hustling your way through the day, don’t. Take a slower pace.
And remember this very important thing…
YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
And remember this even more important thing…
YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE OKAY ALL THE TIME.
It is safe for you to feel your feelings. It is normal to be sad about the state of the world.
The work isn’t to never feel a negative emotion.
We do the work to not let it ruin or lives and take up permanent residence in it.
Simply admitting, with no self-judgement, that you are overwhelmed, or however you are feeling, is a part of that work.